my new favorite quote

"Sometimes the smallest things take up the most room in your heart."

- Winnie the Pooh

Miss You Cecily

I miss you, Cecily. I just wanted you to know that. We have decided to try to grow our family some more, but we could never replace you. You are our baby, and we love you. Every morning when I get up, I think of you. Every prayer I say includes you. Every happy moment we share as a family includes you. Every night as I kiss your brothers good night, I blow a kiss to you and touch it to my heart. Every day I love you more.

I found this quote about rainbow babies:

"Rainbow Baby" is the understanding that the beauty of a rainbow does not negate the ravages of the storm. When a rainbow appears, it doesn't mean the storm never happened or that the family is not still dealing with its aftermath. What it means is that something beautiful and full of light has appeared in the midst of the darkness and clouds. Storm clouds may still hover but the rainbow provides a counterbalance of color, energy and hope.

As we try to conceive our rainbow baby, I just want you to know that you are not forgotten. You are our forever baby.

The Spirit Giveth Life

Just another confirmation that God loves me. The spirit has been whispering for days now that it is time to grow our family again. I pray that I can trust the Lord to help me through the difficult weeks and months ahead of me.

"The Spirit Giveth Life"

In a day of danger or a time of trial, such knowledge, such hope, such understanding brings comfort to the troubled mind and grieving heart. The entire message of the New Testament breathes a spirit of awakening to the human soul. Shadows of despair are dispelled by rays of hope, sorrow yields to joy, and the feeling of being lost in the crowd of life vanishes with the certain knowledge that our Heavenly Father is mindful of each of us.

The Savior provided assurance of this truth when He taught that not even a sparrow shall fall to the ground unnoticed by our Father. He then concluded the beautiful thought by saying,

“Fear ye not therefore, ye are of more value than many sparrows.
“Whosoever therefore shall confess me before men, him will I confess also before my Father which is in heaven” (see Matt. 10:29–32).

We live in a complex world with daily challenges. There is a tendency to feel detached, even isolated, from the Giver of every good gift. We worry that we walk alone.

From the bed of pain, from the pillow wet with the tears of loneliness, we are lifted heavenward by that divine assurance and precious promise, “I will not fail thee, nor forsake thee” (Josh. 1:5).

Such comfort is priceless as we journey along the pathway of mortality, with its many forks and turnings. Rarely is the assurance communicated by a flashing sign or a loud voice. Rather, the language of the Spirit is gentle, quiet, uplifting to the heart and soothing to the soul.

At times, the answers to our questions and the responses to our daily prayers come to us through silent promptings of the Spirit. As William Cowper wrote:

God moves in a mysterious way His wonders to perform;
He plants his footsteps in the sea And rides upon the storm. …
Judge not the Lord by feeble sense,But trust him for his grace;
Behind a frowning providence He hides a smiling face. (Hymns, 1948, no. 48)

We watch. We wait. We listen for that still, small voice. When it speaks, wise men and women obey. Promptings of the Spirit are not to be postponed.

-Thomas S. Monson